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Dear Diary,
This stupid savage! He is such a weird person, I cannot understand him. How can he do this to me?
First I thought this would be a really great day because John told me that he really loves me. But then he started talking about such crazy stuff I could not understand, about some weird things they do in the reservation he comes from, like the marriage or something like that. I did not know what he was talking about and that made me furious. But anyway I wanted him so much and I wanted to make love to him (sicher, dass du hier "mit jmd. Liebe machen" meinst? Im Sinne von Sex?) but instead of returning my feelings and kissing me he hurt me, slapped me, called me a whore and even threatened to kill me. I locked myself up in the bathroom. For some reason, maybe because of the phone call (phone call ist umgangssprachlicher, daher mMn eher angemessen für Tagebuch) he got, he suddenly was gone. (was gone meint "war (auf einmal) verschwunden". Wenn du meinst, "ging er auf einmal weg", nimm "went away") It was so awful. How could I fall for such an awful (hier vielleicht ein anderes Wort, awful hast du gerade schon verwendet) person? He is so different. But even after this incident I cannot stop thinking about him...
I know I am not supposed to feel such feelings, but I cannot stop them...